So since Sunday I decided that I was going to go to Church for the tridium. So far I've got 2/3 of the way through it (geeze,that's sounds like I don't care)....I have gone to Holy thursday and today...Good Friday. I feel good about. But really bad at the same time. I sit there in front of the Holy Sacrament and realize that I'm not giving enough to God. I actually cried...CRIED, because I feel horrible that he suffered just so a selfish, undeserving, human like me can be with him in heaven. I give myself the benefit of the doubt when it comes to most kids my age. I go to church every Sunday, every Holy Day of Obligation, and times in between to help w/ youth ministries and religious education classes. I feel very strongly about the eucharist and have a true devotion to it. It's not enough if I don't try hard everyday to remind myself of why I'm doing it. All my life I liked to think that I was the mature, down to earth girl, growing up fast because life's hard lessons made me. But it hasn't been until these last couple of years that I really discovered how much maturing I had to do. I mean, I haven't even stayed true to my lenten vow....how can I really commit to anything. Have I become the Jesus preaching hypocrite I've always frowned on? Yeah. In God's eyes I guess I could be. Somewhere inside me says that because I'm going to a truely Catholic university that I can do all the sinning I want know and then become closer to God when I get there. What's wrong w/me. On top of all things...I'm not ok leaving all my family friends anymore. I say that to myslef to stay strong...but that's just a lie. I keep saying, "high school just needs to end" but I don't want the relationships I've formed to fly away when I go to Ohio. I guess deep down I know I'll make friends...I just feel like they'll be so different because I'm a quirky, witty, sarcastic...VERY sarcastic, girl who loves to laugh...even when it comes to the bad things. I don't know. the worst part is that for the first time in my life, I'm developing feelings for someone that I shouldn't have as a girl going to Ohio for four years! If anyone knows me, I'm the girl that does not want to get involved until maybe college. But I like this person very much. It's almost like God is putting all these great things in front of me and making them unattainable, making me realize that true happiness starts w/ him. But my faith is TRUELY difficult to live by!Wow. I'M 17! Not even 18 till September! What am I doing with these problems in my head. I know the truth about my faith, and absolutely no one could ever take me away from it know. I learned it early on and leaving it because it's hard would be a bigger sin than anything I could ever do. Just ignoring it is horrible. I'm not contemplating leaving my faith but I feel like I drifted away from it since last August when senior year started. Perhaps it's because now,it's all on me to visit and have a relationship w/ the big guy. It's not mommy and pops problem anymore.whew
I'm gonna go pray for a long time.
Friday, April 6, 2007
Thursday, April 5, 2007
Killer Lady bug!!!!
As some may know, prom is coming up pretty soon. And I found this amazing dress at Macy's! It's green and gold and perfect! But one must get tan before she wears it? Why is Stephanie referring to herself in the third person....I don't know. ANYwho, I went outside to play volleyball with my sis, then soccer spung up (because I kicked the ball at her). Then came dodgeball soccer,which happends to be called sodgerball at the Rangel house. SO! I'm getting the burn rollin and actually excercising when suddenly I feel this bug land on my neck! AHHHHH!!!
Now, I'm not a little sissy la la when it comes to most things but BUGS SCARE THE HELL OUT OF ME!
As I freakishly attack the beastial thing on my neck I begin to scream, realizing that the INSECT O' DEATH was not unlatching. Why wasn't it leaving?! I'm flicking it! GO AWAY!!!!!!
My neck begins to stiffen and my eyes go hazy because of the MASSIVE panic attack.
Then I realize that I had only one choice. Only one option to detaching the monster from my neck.......IT......MUST.....DIE! By this I mean, SWAT AT IT! As hard as I can!
I proceedith with my final decision and swat at the "insect o' death." I look down at my hand, only expecting the biggest goop of insect guts I have ever seen. To my surprise I lift my hand to my face only to see the inner wrinkles of my palm.
WHAT THE H. E. double hockey sticks!! Where did it go?! Somehow I was relieved because I didn't have to go wash off any bug juice from my neck. I turn to my sis with a sigh of relief and go to sit down in the lawn chair fastened next to our pool.
I begin to close my eyes when...THE KILLER LADY BUG GRABS HOLD OF MY NOSE!!!!!!
Oh no! Not this time Chachee! I flung it to the ground and stepped on it with the force of an almighty being. At this point I must have been going crazy because I laughed at it and called it names.
Nontheless,Victory had been acheived.
Wednesday, April 4, 2007
Joe Bravo is my inspiration
Los Angeles artist Joe Bravo stands in front of one of his tortilla paintings being exhibited at the Mexican Cultural Institute in Los Angeles March 29, 2007. Bravo first started the acrylic paintings on tortillas when he was in college and couldn't afford canvases. The exhibit has broken the gallery's attendance records and the paintings are selling for as much as $1,800 each. REUTERS/Lucy Nicholson (UNITED STATES)
Full House ain't so great
So I sit here with absolutely nothing to do until 6:30 (jazz class....yeah it isn't fun) and I'm watching Full House.
Let me me just tell you that until five minutes ago I held this quirky little sitcom, of three males trying to raise a family of girls, in the highest regard; matched with shows that of Friends, Seinfeld, and even Project runway. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME! THIS SHOW ISN'T FUNNY! I mean let's look at the character selection a really analyze why it could have possibly intrigued me as a child and what these people really do for a living now:
Danny: Bob Saggot-what a pervert! I've heard some of his comedy and he's filthy. I suppose his quick witted sarcasm on the show really was just cover for the dirty jokes that he REALLY wanted to say. Sicko...
Joey: WHAT AN IDIOT! His jokes weren't really funny. His voices were cool...until I realized that it was the same one in differents accents.
Jesse: Will you stop touching your greasy a$$ hair. It's not cute and that's all you do. You don't give good advice you usually aren't very funny and for goodness sake, you couldn't hold on to your Beach Boys job. "Have mercy." yeah have mercy on your soul...heh
Michele: I liked her...not gonna lie. Good thing they stopped the show before the twins developed that horrible cleft lip and drinking/drug abuse problem.
DJ: what a ho
Stephanie: "How rude"? Is that all you can come up w/. Granted in later episodes she turned the funny against that lame ace best friend of DJ. I'm ashamed to have her name...
Comet: cool... I mean, he was a dog that could comfort anyone when they're feeling down. He's better that Lassey.
and...
Rebecca: Funny...I put he rfter the dog because she really didn't matter.
And that's the break down of the Full House cast.
Let me me just tell you that until five minutes ago I held this quirky little sitcom, of three males trying to raise a family of girls, in the highest regard; matched with shows that of Friends, Seinfeld, and even Project runway. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME! THIS SHOW ISN'T FUNNY! I mean let's look at the character selection a really analyze why it could have possibly intrigued me as a child and what these people really do for a living now:
Danny: Bob Saggot-what a pervert! I've heard some of his comedy and he's filthy. I suppose his quick witted sarcasm on the show really was just cover for the dirty jokes that he REALLY wanted to say. Sicko...
Joey: WHAT AN IDIOT! His jokes weren't really funny. His voices were cool...until I realized that it was the same one in differents accents.
Jesse: Will you stop touching your greasy a$$ hair. It's not cute and that's all you do. You don't give good advice you usually aren't very funny and for goodness sake, you couldn't hold on to your Beach Boys job. "Have mercy." yeah have mercy on your soul...heh
Michele: I liked her...not gonna lie. Good thing they stopped the show before the twins developed that horrible cleft lip and drinking/drug abuse problem.
DJ: what a ho
Stephanie: "How rude"? Is that all you can come up w/. Granted in later episodes she turned the funny against that lame ace best friend of DJ. I'm ashamed to have her name...
Comet: cool... I mean, he was a dog that could comfort anyone when they're feeling down. He's better that Lassey.
and...
Rebecca: Funny...I put he rfter the dog because she really didn't matter.
And that's the break down of the Full House cast.
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
Suppose this is true
When U know you've been in band 2 long!
1. When you hear music and start marking time.
2. When you walk in step with the person in front of you.
3. When you try to guess the tempo of your favorite song.
4. When all of your friends are in band.
5. When you don't mind changing clothes on the bus.
6. When you point out key changes and dynamics while listening to the radio.
7. When you like wearing your uniform.
8. When every guy/girl you're interested in is in the band.
9. When people ask you about your social life and you say, "Oh, you mean my flute/trumpet/drum/etc.?"
10. When you consider your drill book a fashion accessory.
11. When you've had a "trombone-ectomy."
12. When you practice your instrument more than you talk to your dog.
13. When being mauled by a drum is a normal part of life.
14. When people worry when they see you without your instrument.
15. When "armed guard" means a girl with a pole instead of a guy with a gun.
16. When band camp is FUN.
17. When you respond to "band kid."
18. When someone says the word "box" and you automatically put your head up.
19. When you remember flats and sharps more easily than your name.
20. When you dress the lunch line and urge others to do the same.
21. When you're alone and you suffocate because there's no one telling you to breathe.
22. When slides feel normal.
23. When your instrument has a name.
24. When you remember your instrument's birthday and forget your mom's.
25. When making a line is your biggest accomplishment of the day.
26. When marching backwards no longer reminds you of ballet.
27. When you give your instrument a birthday party.
28. When you can make brown shoes look white.
29. When your uniform fits.
30. When black feathers become a fashion "do."
31. When you see your section more than you see your family.
1. When you hear music and start marking time.
2. When you walk in step with the person in front of you.
3. When you try to guess the tempo of your favorite song.
4. When all of your friends are in band.
5. When you don't mind changing clothes on the bus.
6. When you point out key changes and dynamics while listening to the radio.
7. When you like wearing your uniform.
8. When every guy/girl you're interested in is in the band.
9. When people ask you about your social life and you say, "Oh, you mean my flute/trumpet/drum/etc.?"
10. When you consider your drill book a fashion accessory.
11. When you've had a "trombone-ectomy."
12. When you practice your instrument more than you talk to your dog.
13. When being mauled by a drum is a normal part of life.
14. When people worry when they see you without your instrument.
15. When "armed guard" means a girl with a pole instead of a guy with a gun.
16. When band camp is FUN.
17. When you respond to "band kid."
18. When someone says the word "box" and you automatically put your head up.
19. When you remember flats and sharps more easily than your name.
20. When you dress the lunch line and urge others to do the same.
21. When you're alone and you suffocate because there's no one telling you to breathe.
22. When slides feel normal.
23. When your instrument has a name.
24. When you remember your instrument's birthday and forget your mom's.
25. When making a line is your biggest accomplishment of the day.
26. When marching backwards no longer reminds you of ballet.
27. When you give your instrument a birthday party.
28. When you can make brown shoes look white.
29. When your uniform fits.
30. When black feathers become a fashion "do."
31. When you see your section more than you see your family.
Sunday, April 1, 2007
The ladies Man
The Ladies Man has to be one of thee funniest characters ever created.
I'm convinced that his extreme ability to woo women truely exists.
If Sammy Davis Jr. and Denzel Washington had a love child, this would be him.
Perhaps it's the subtle lisp or his classy fashion sense. I don't know . But one thing I do know...
Whenever he says "that's just disgutin' " or "Sally Jesse Raphael," my day just goes better!
Watching Ladies Man= A day in the life of PERFECTION!
I encourage all to experience what life is really all about.
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